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Cynicism and Roses

....for you to enjoy....


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haven't written one of these in a long fuckin' time....years? i think so.....*shrugs*

life is still balls......

i feel like i'm going to fucking lose my job because of incompetency, but i know for a fact that i'm not incompetent......i feel like i'm getting used and mistreated by my work/boss, who damn well doesn't appreciate my hard work or the fact that i get compliments from my customers for my chipper attitude and effort.......fuck him......

and then i come home, and my brother is using my mom like nobody's business.......using her house, her utilities, her car, fucking around with said car without asking her first, using her refrigerator space, making her feel like shit and me feel like shit, like WE'RE the useless idiots when THEY are the ones who don't have a fucking job or a drop of income and are just mooching off their own mother.......

and my sister, who is only slightly better, dumping her kids off on mom even though she's bone tired and just wants to sleep and relax and have some own time for herself.......

i love my mom so much, and i can't believe that she's being used like this by her own kids......it makes me sick......

right now, i'm so stressed from work and life and fucking everything, i wish i could just close my eyes and drift away into the vastness of space.........get away from everything, and be surrounded by absolutely nothing, and just float........the stars are sparkling around me, the planets and moons are making lazy orbits around exploding suns, comets are whizzing past me leaving trails of sparkling light and dust and debris.........but there is no sound, no air, nothing to worry about or even feel...........

just floating......

as if.......

oh well.......

Emily

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